Generally I use my Sundays to wrap up recent reading experiences and calmly think about books from the lofty perch of a safe overview. And I probably will go on to write some reviews today. I have quite a review backlog left over from the summer vacations, including some ARCs which I really need to write about. However, I faithfully try to use my
Sunday Salon time to talk about my main reading activities of the day. And I must tell you, dear reader, that reviews are not at the center of my thoughts.
This frustrating annoying lump of wood byproduct that Rousseau called
The Confessions is occupying the bulk of my mental energy. When I read the introduction (which was kind of a typical blah blah blah introduction) I noted the "early autobiography blah blah blah" "influence on Proust blah blah blah". And, see, I should have paid attention when he talked about the influence on Proust because then I would have had an inkling how much the narrator of
The Confessions was going to irk me. I'd like to borrow an image from the much wiser
oursin and think for a moment about book characters who make me want to smack them with a codfish. There is, of course, our friend from
A la recherche du temps perdu. There is
Thomas Covenant, the Unbeliever. And now there is the remembered Rousseau in
The Confessions. My holy trinity of characters who deserve a codfish.
I'm a little more than halfway through the book right now, and it's taking me quite a long time to read. This is because I get annoyed and have to put it down after reading much less than I might ordinarily read. Today I have promised myself to struggle to get through more pages than I have been able to do so far on a daily basis.
I just got to the point in the book where he recounts how he convinced his mistress of subnormal intelligence (Thérèse Lavasseur) to dump their bastard children at a Foundling Hospital rather than embarrass him in an attempt to raise them. I don't call her subnormal because she puts up with Rousseau. Rather, I call her subnormal because by his own accounts she is unable to tell time or name the months of the year. (
edited to say: of course, we only have Rousseau's word that Thérèse was "simple-minded". As this clearly would have been a compliment for him and as it fits with some of his ideas about women and instinct, it is certainly suspect.)
This charming episode comes after his time in Venice in which he cheerfully shares an anecdote where he and a friend bought a pretty eleven year old girl with the intention of debauching her once she reached a decent age of maturity. However, Rousseau reassures us that by the time he left Venice he was so fond of the child that he believes he would have ended up defending her virtue instead of taking it. But, since he had to leave Italy, he isn't sure how the story ends.
Or there was the part where he stole a ribbon from a household where he worked. When caught, he blamed a young servant girl for the theft and says that she gave him the ribbon as a gift. He was believed, and she was dismissed with a bad name. He excuses himself by saying that he had stolen it to give to her and wished that it was the truth that she had stolen it to give to him. He feels bad about it, he tells us, but not too bad.
On the one hand, I keep telling myself that none of us would come off wonderfully well if we wrote a warts and all confession of our sinful selves. On the other hand, he is just so whiny and difficult to like. Even when he isn't being criminal, depraved or irresponsible, his impassioned fluting about his dear "Mamma" (Madame de Warens) make me wish that he would go back to debauching young girls or exposing himself at public fountains (he does that too, in his younger days).
Oh well. He asks us, as readers, not to judge until we make it all the way through the volumes. I will do my very very best to hold up both sides of that contract-- both the not judging part and the making it all the way through part. I am more likely to succeed with the latter than the former.
Anyone out there actually finished
The Confessions? Does it get less irritating?
